Once I thought..

"Once I thought I'd never grow tall as this fence. Time dragged heavy and slow. But April came and August went before I knew just what they meant. But little by little i grew. And as i grew i came to know how fast the time could go."

As I listen to this song, I can see myself as a little girl. Years just flew by, and I didn't what I needed to be doing. But as the song says, "little by little I grew.." and it's true that I grew. I grew in so many different ways. And also as the song says, I did come to know how fast the time could go...

"Once i thought I'd never go outside this fence. This space was plenty for me. But i walked down the road one day and just what happened i can't say. But little by little it came to be, that line between the earth and sky came beckoning to me."

There was a time that I never thought I'd leave Liberty Missouri. I loved it there. Heck, I cried when I had to leave my elementary school! I cried even harder when high school was over. Ok people..I'm crazy! But back to the seriousness..I never thought I'd leave. I can't tell you what happened to make me want to leave. To make me want to expand my horizons and keep on going. But as the song so eloquently says, "That line between the earth and sky came BECKONING to me..." And that's exactly what happened it seems. I was beckoned.

"Now the time has grown so short, the world has grown so wide. I'll be graduated soon. Why am i strange inside? What makes me think I'd like to try? To go down all those roads beyond that line above the earth and neath the sky..."

WHAT WAS I THINKING? Everything was moving so fast I didn't know what to do, where to go, who to be with. EVERYTHING expanded. The world grew SO wide! There was no limit it seemed. I felt strange. I still feel strange. Confusion is my biggest enemy. When I'm confused..nothing makes sense. When the world was handed to me on a platter and I could pick anything I wanted..it seemed so crazy to me! What made me think that I could follow those horizons, and reach out for the farthest land...

"Tomorrow when i sit upon, that graduation platform stand. I know my hand will shake when i reach out to take that paper with the ribbon band."

Alright, so I'm not graduating anytime soon..but think of this part of the song as more of a futureish kind of thing.

"Now that all the learning's done, oh who knows what will now begin? Oh it's so strange. I'm strange inside! The time has grown so short, the world so wide. "

Well obviously all my learning is NOT done. But I am still asking myself.."What will now begin?" And it is strange. And I am strange inside. There is not enough time to do all I want. The world is so WIDE!

Wow, so this was a pretty crazy post. But that song is MY song right now.