Lately

So I've learned a lot of things as of late. I've learned about true friendship.
I've learned who I want to be friends with, and who I could live without. And ya know...this is quite difficult. I don't like finding out that people I thought were my best friends could, in reality, care less.

Also, I've realized how much I really do miss Andrew. This is so retarded. I thought I was over him, but he keeps leading me astray. He keeps leading me down different roads. There are times when he wants me to leave him alone, and there are times where he tells me that he misses me and that he still loves me. The problem here, is that I still very much love him. I hate that. I hate that I still love him. I hate that he leads me on.

I care about him so deeply. I would do anything for him, and he knows that and takes advantage of it. I just miss my best friend.

Monday morning rain is falling...

So I know that it's supposed to be sunday morning...but i've decided it's going to be monday morning from now on :)

So here is how every stinking monday is going to look this semester..

6:30 a.m--Wake up, shower, get ready...etc
8:00 a.m--Theory 3
9:00 a.m--Vocal Diction 2
10:00 a.m--Chapel
11:00 a.m--New Testament
12:00 p.m--Lunch
12:30 p.m--Violin Lesson
1:00 p.m--Chorale
2:00 p.m--Orchestra
3:00 p.m--String Quartet
4:15 p.m--Mellers
8:00 p.m--Homework

Can somebody please tell me why I have literally 45 min. tops for breaks on mondays?!?!? Oh heavens

Really????

So, I just got called into work because somebody falsely accused me of calling my boss a bitch. First of all, i do NOT think my boss is a bitch. Secondly, WHY ON EARTH WOULD I SAY ANYTHING LIKE THAT TO ANYBODY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I'm not completely retarded! I mean really? Do people honestly think I am retarded?!?!? Apparently I told a customer this while I was serving them...
really? really...Does this person just want me fired? Does this person just think I'm a complete idiot?!? How many times do I tell people that I love working at mellers??? Enough times that people look at me like I'm crazy.
OH...and apparently when a co-worker told me to clean something i said to her "I was hired to serve, not clean.." I WOULD NEVER SAY THAT!

I almost lost my job because of being falsely accused, and somebody maybe mixing me up with somebody else. I'm not sure about that 2nd one..because I would NEVER dis-respect any of my co-workers. I got this job and I am very grateful for it...why would I do anything that would cause me to loose my job? So now I'm getting a 2nd chance...even though I did nothing.

Gah....how frustrating

Love?

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always ...protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. -- 1 Corinthians 13

I was not patient..I was not kind...I envied...I was rude...I was easily angered..I kept record of wrongs. I never trusted...I failed..

So I guess I was never in love...