Lately

So I've learned a lot of things as of late. I've learned about true friendship.
I've learned who I want to be friends with, and who I could live without. And ya know...this is quite difficult. I don't like finding out that people I thought were my best friends could, in reality, care less.

Also, I've realized how much I really do miss Andrew. This is so retarded. I thought I was over him, but he keeps leading me astray. He keeps leading me down different roads. There are times when he wants me to leave him alone, and there are times where he tells me that he misses me and that he still loves me. The problem here, is that I still very much love him. I hate that. I hate that I still love him. I hate that he leads me on.

I care about him so deeply. I would do anything for him, and he knows that and takes advantage of it. I just miss my best friend.